It’s taken me 2 years to get here, to the part in my journey that I can confidently say I’m at a ‘new beginning.’ The truth is that with ‘new beginnings,’ there is most often a blurry start, with one year smudging into the other, swinging between ‘endings’ and old narratives, to new beginnings and the possibilities that come with a ‘different way.’

The truth about a new beginning is that to begin, there must first be an end; one that knocks us to our knees, disables us and stops us braving the night. The end is there to defeat us so that we cannot carry on as we were. It offers us no torch to light up the old trodden path we know so well. It leaves us in the dark and it’s here, when we’re feeling lost, hopeless and grief stricken, that we’re faced with a decision. We either stay here, stagnated in this position of helplessness, or we bravely take a step forward and we start walking into the unknown, in a new direction.

New beginnings are not always so clear. Sometimes, it takes years to begin again; an inch by inch process in a new direction with regular setbacks. But then something happens and it ‘lands’ with a  ‘thump,’ enough for you to turn your head and to look back and see how far you have come; to see that where there was once no space for anything else other than the pain or loss you felt, there is now simply space and enough light to mindfully choose your way. In that moment, you know you’ve turned the page and this is a new chapter, a new beginning.

Join me as I continue to walk down this path, exploring it and experiencing it, with all the bumps and burns and the twists and turns that come with starting something.

The beauty about a ‘new beginning’ is simply that there can be one.

Here begins a new chapter and a new theme for the Rosie Goes Blog: New beginnings.